Brother

Dedicated to my brother Andy, he passed away at 42 from heart failure. 1971-2013

When you were born I was really mad,
Now that I am older I feel so bad.
As a child I thought you broke up my mom and dad’s marriage,
But I was so wrong and saying that took a lot of courage.
As we grew up life was a living hell,
If you were here you would agree with me as well.
We had to stick together to make it through,
It was just us kids we stuck together like glue.
Some memories will be different I am sure of that,
But some are the same and that's a fact.
When I moved out is when you got closer to me,
Like sisters and brothers are supposed to be.
Our memories got better for the times that we shared,
I miss you dear brother you know that I always cared.

Andy was my half-brother. I didn't know he was born until my mom came over and he was lying on the front seat of the car. Back in those days we didn't need car seats. Anyway, that's the reason I thought my parents divorced as a child, I was 8. But it was so far from the truth. My daughter Amy and brother Andy birthdays are one day apart and they celebrated together all the time.

We love and miss you Andy!!

Dearest Little Grandson

This is dedicated to my grandson Floyd, JR.

We were happy and couldn't wait for your life to begin,
Then your mom got sick, panic and fear set in.
You were born too early and that scared us all,
With your transparent skin and you were oh so small.
Feeling the power and strength from God hands from above,
We know you will pull through with our prayers and our love.
Soon you will be home safe at your parent’s side,
We are waiting very patiently for that day to arrive.
Your precious little life started out fragile and rough,
But it will be fine little grandson we know you are tough.
We love you dear grandson with all of our hearts,
Now be strong little grandson as your new life starts.

Amy, my daughter, had gotten sick during her pregnancy. She had high blood pressure, Preeclampsia. The day they transported her from one hospital to the other hit me hard as the ambulance passed us. That was my baby in there. She was in the hospital almost a week and delivered the day she turned 7 months. Floyd (her husband), his mom, Lance (Amy's dad and I) stayed at the hospital round the clock. Lance and I went home to try and get some sleep after a couple days. It was an hour ride. We were home 1/2 before we got called back up to the hospital. One week we will never forget.

Saying Good-Bye

I wrote this when My sister was dying of cancer. She passed March, 22, 2003. She was 42 years old.

It's so hard to say good-bye,
It's so hard it makes me cry.
I know that soon you will be leaving,
In my heart I will be grieving.
I still hear your laugh and see your smile,
I can feel your presence all of the while.
In my heart, I will try to be strong,
But in my mind I know, you are gone.
My heart is empty my mind confused,
All my emotions are being abused.
As I try to figure out life itself,
All my feelings are in a box on a shelf.
I will always remember you, my whole life through.
I will cherish the memories I have of you
In my heart, I will try to keep strong,
But in my mind I know, you are gone.

Dedicated to my sister Ronda.
We LOVE YOU and Miss you so much..

The Flower Blooms

This Poem was written for my daughter, Amy

As I watch my flower bloom,
I feed and water it, I give it room.
With petals of brilliant bright colors,
You stand so proud, like know others.
As the sun sets in the West,
You know soon it’s time to rest.
As the petals close up for the night,
I stand staring at the beautiful sight.
As I whisper to you, "Goodnight my child",
You whisper to me "I love you" with a smile.
Unconditional love, it’s all given free.
This is what life means to me.